no able to say anything else.
you ask me what do I want to do, what should we do
idk.
I look at myself, at my plans, at my job
idk.
should I weather the storm and stay, should we stay?
are we on time to still move somewhere else, start a new life, an old life?
idk.
can I go back to my old self? can I go back?
is there even anything to go back to?
idk.
the pressure for an answer, the urge for an answer and just not knowing what to do, what's the next step
and it would be fine to not know the next step, if I hadn't this pressure on my chest
this weight over me
I don't know. I jsut don't know.
how do I start?